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Can't think of much more. If you have any ideas, feel free to complain <3

Allright.

Now this Journal here comes back to life.
I'll continue to post my stuff here, both in german and english. Post videos I created, wallpapers, Icons etc. Also a great amount of Cosplay stuff.

Part of this LJ will remain private, for I guess I cannot avoid writing at least some private entries. Due to that - it's partly friends only!

I don't know this song... but the lyrics are very touching in my opinion ^^



Metal Gear Solid O.S.T. - The best is yet to come

Do you remember the time
when little things made you happy
Do you remember the time
when little things made you smile

Life can be wonderful
if you let it be
Life can be simple
if you try

Whatever happened to you those day?
Whatever happened to you those night?

Do you remember the time
when little things made you sad
Do you remember the time
when little things made you cry

It's just me
or
It's just us

Feeling lost in this world?

Why do we have to hurt each other
why do we have to shed tears?

Life can be beautiful
if you try
Life can be joyful
if we try

Tell me
I'm not alone
tell me
we are not alone
fighting against the wind

Do you remember the time
when simple things made you happy
Do you remember the time,
when little things made you laugh

You know
life can be simple
You know
life is simple

Because
the best thing in life is yet to come

Because...
the best is yet to come

heh ^^ a list of my favourite amv's ^^" (yeah I'm bored ~.~ )

d.n.angel:

http://www.animemusicvideos.org/members/members_videoinfo.php?vid_id=27084

http://www.animemusicvideos.org/members/members_videoinfo.php?v=28773 (!)

kenshin:

http://www.animemusicvideos.org/members/members_videoinfo.php?vid_id=6805 (!!)

http://www.animemusicvideos.org/members/members_videoinfo.php?vid_id=27047

.hack:

http://www.animemusicvideos.org/members/members_videoinfo.php?vid_id=15648

naruto:

http://www.animemusicvideos.org/members/members_videoinfo.php?vid_id=40680

http://www.animemusicvideos.org/members/members_videoinfo.php?vid_id=20084

samurai deeper kyo:

http://www.animemusicvideos.org/members/members_videoinfo.php?vid_id=24994

chrno crusade:

http://www.animemusicvideos.org/members/members_videoinfo.php?vid_id=29289

escaflowne:

http://www.animemusicvideos.org/members/members_videoinfo.php?v=11150 (!!!)


that's it so far ^^"

I just had to write them down somewhere ^^" I'm currently listening to this song and I just love it ^___^

heaven's not enough
if when you get there...
just another blue
and heaven's not enough
you think you've found it
and it loses you

you've thought of all there is
but not enough
and it loses you in a cloud

"there" most everything is nothin'
that it seems
"where" you see the things you only wanna see

I'd fly away
to a higher plane
to say words I resist
to float away
to sigh
to breath.... forget

and heaven's not enough
if when I'm there I don't remember you
and heaven does enough
you think you know it
and it uses you

I saw so many things
but like a dream
always losing me in a cloud

cause I couldn't cry
cause I turned away
couldn't see the score
didn't know the pain
of leaving yesterday really far behind
in another life
in another dream
by a different name
gave it all away
for a memory
and a quiet life
and I felt the face
of a cold tonight
still don't know the score
but I know the pain
of leaving everything really far behind
and if I could cry
and if I could live what truth I did then take me there
heaven good by

You're Fuji!


(Prince of Tennis) Which Seigaku Regular are you?
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You have a twisted soul! Twisted Souls are never
bad, and actually, are a rarity amongst souls.
These souls are a little combination of
everything, with always a little of their own
chaos to add. Twisted Souls are kind, loving,
weird, zany, temperamental, and very talented.
They have their own firm opinion, and can at
one time be very outspoken and passionate, and
the other time shy and feeling insignificant.
Twisted Souls have good senses of Humor and
other times can be a bore. You can act quite
intelligent at one time, and grasp concepts
easily, while other times they can find it
difficult to understand. Twisted Souls are
always very fun and Kind, and can be party
animals. But, if you love someone, youre
serious about it, intense, and forever loyal.
Congratulations-the world should have more like
you.



What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
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You're Kira. You're the patient type and, though
you care deeply for your friends, everyone sees
you as cold hearted and tries to keep their
distance. If someone wrongs you, however, you
like to bid your time and, when they least
expect it, strike back. You can be pretty
ruthless, but only if you're pissed off.
You're also the reborn soul of Lucifer as well
as the Messiah's best friend. Pretty
conflicting positions you have there, but
you're a good friend to Setsuna and you help
him out of a lot of scrapes, often putting
yourself in danger to get him out of danger.
Those that become your friend never regret it
and everyone mourned you when you left.


Which 'Angel Sanctuary' Character Are You?
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Congratulations! You are Raphael!


Which character from Angel Sanctuary are you?
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yeaaah *___* and I did not even cheat *chuckles* but it's true... I often do say: And what do I get out of it? ^^"


Your Sanzo-Tachi alter ego is Cho Hakkai. You
possess his character.


Who Among Saiyuki's Sanzo-Tachi is Your Alter Ego?
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The Yaoi Selector: Which Seme are You?
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O.o eh?


The Yaoi Selector: Which Uke are You?
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*blinks*




EEEvil....

Find out what bishonen you are.

Which of the Samurai Deeper Kyo Cast Are You?
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wow ......that REALLY was a surprise to me O.o but......I still like it ^^

Neutral:
Harmony and balance is key. You don't look at the
world in a negative or positive way and you'll
never judge or assume a situation- you just
look at the facts. People like you are peaceful
and accepting.



What color do you see the world in?
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peaceful and accepting, huh? O.o



You have wings of STEEL. No one's really
sure why, but at this point in your life you've
shut off emotion to the point of extreme
apathy. You are cold and indifferent much of
the time...or perhaps you're just a good
pretender. Next to impossible to get close to,
even those who do never see the real you. It's
entirely possible that YOU don't even know the
real you. You have a certain fascination or
attraction to destruction on a massive scale -
disasters, perhaps even death or the concept of
the Apocalypse. Because you hold so much
inside, one day you're simply going to snap.
Then the mask will fall away, and your true
wings will be revealed. Until then you will
deal with whatever comes your way in icy bitter
silence and acceptance. On the positive side,
you are fearless and immeasurably strong - not
much can crack through your defenses. You
intrigue people, who can't help but wonder why
you're the way you are. A loner and one who
spends much of their time brooding and
contemplating life and death - you are a time
bomb waiting to explode and create some
destruction of your own.

Image Source:
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Words added by myself


*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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oO



You are a silver dragon. The rarest kind of dragon.
YOu are noble yet avoid humans as much as
possible. You are the guardian of the
defensless and you rule the skies.


Which Dragon resides in your soul? (cool pictures!)
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What type of Bishounen are you? Find out at artificial-soul.net by Rin.

You are Makoto Shishio!

The leader of the Juppon Gatana, and the second Battousai. Convinced that you are the strongest, you set out to conquer Japan and take your rightful place as its ruler.

Wrapped in bandages due to severe burns, you blame the government for everything that was done to you. Well, actually, it was there fault, but you don't have to kill everyone to make your point. You are insanely strong, as well as skilled. Your sword and your technique make you an almost unstoppable force. Maybe it's true; maybe the fires of Hell really do burn inside of you.

Which member of the Juppon Gatana are You?

shishio? O.o

Postatem obscuri lateris nescitis.
"You do not know the power of the Dark
Side." There are two possibilities: you
are a Star Wars geek, or you are unreasoningly
scary.


Which Weird Latin Phrase Are You?
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*lol*

What (yaoi) anime pairing are you?

this quiz was made by Eike and Mirai





What Ragnarok Character Should You Be?
Quiz by Angelhalo


http://ktaf.luvu-luvu.net/

hehe ^^ my other nic:

Wings
they are shattered

Smile
is has vanished

Will
has been broken

Strength
is it still there?

Lowered head
I await my destiny

Eyes closed
unknown feelings haunt me

Darkness
all around me

But then...
something wet touches my cheek
I open my eyes
and see you
crying

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all

Wish I'd died instead of lived

I don't wanna die,
but I'm not keen on living either

The fire in my heart is dying
and the zeal I had is gone

This path that I've chosen's a rocky one
Long, hard and frozen it has become
Each turn that I've taken on the way
has only led me back to Hell
I am dying down growing weaker now
It could seem that I'm doing fine
but I'm broken to little pieces deep inside

Why did I ever choose to go this way
The question I keep asking myself all the time
I guess it was my instinct for self-destruction
that pointed me down this way

Sanft berühren mich seine Hände,
leise flüstert er Worte der Liebe in mein Ohr.

Ich lächle,
doch erreichen die Silben mein Herz nicht.

Es tut weh,
dass ich es nicht so erweidern kann.
Er leidet deswegen,
und doch sind wir uns so nahe.

Ich vermag es nicht auszusprechen,
die Worte,
die verletzenden

Ich handle gegen mich selbst
um zu vermeiden dass ich verwunde...
und doch
sehne ich mich immer nach dem was ich von mir drücke

Soll ich schweigen
um seinetweillen?
Oder soll ich reden
um meinetwillen?

Ich kenne die Antwort nicht
und so bin ich still und warte...
Auf was?
Ich weiß es nicht...

"You are a silly little boy" said the Lord of the Flies, "just an ignorant, silly little boy."
Simon moved his swollen tongue but said nothing.
"Don't you agree?" said the Lord of the Flies. "Aren't you just a silly little boy?"
Simon answered him in the same silent voice.
"Well then," said the Lord of the Flies, "you'd better run off and play with the others. They think you're batty. You don't want Ralp to think you're batty, do you? You like Ralp a lot, don't you? And Piggy, and Jack?"
Simon's head was tilted slightly up. His eyes could not break away and the Lord of the Flies hung in space before him.
"What are you doing out here all alone? Aren't you afraid of me?"
Simon shook.
"There isn't anyone to help you. Only me. And I'm the Beast."
Simon's mouth laboured, brought forth audible words.
"Pig's head on a stick."
"Fancy thinking the Beast was something you could hunt and kill!" said the head. For a moment or two the forest and all the other dimply appreciates places echoed with the parody of laughter. "You knew, didn't you? I'm part of you? Close, close, close! I'm the reason why it's no go? Why things are what they are?"
The laughter shivered again.
"Come now," said the Lord of the Flies. "Get back to the others and we'll forget the whole thing."
Simon's head wobbled. His eyes were half-closed as though he were imitating the obscene thing on the stick. He knew that one of his times was coming on. The Lord of the Flies was expanding like a balloon.
"This is ridiculous. You know perfectly well you'll only meet me down there- so don't try to escape!"
Simon's body was arched and stiff. The Lord of the Flies spoke in the voice of a schoolmaster.
"This has gone quite far enough. My poor, misguided child, do you think you know better than I do?"
There was a pause.
"I'm warning you. I'm going to get away. D'you see? You're not wanted. Understand? We are going to have fun on this island! So don't try it on, my poor misguided boy, or else..."
Simon found he was looking into a vast mouth. There was blackness within, a blackness that spread.
"... or else," said the Lord of the Flies, "we shall do you. See? Jack and Roger and Muarice and Robert and Bill and Piggy and Ralph. Do you. See?"
Simon was inside the mouth. He fell down and lost consciousness.

(excerpt- taken from "Lord of the Flies" by William Golding)

stray child

if you are lost in your way
deep in an awesome story
don't be in doubt and stray
cling to your lonesome folly

now you're too close to the pain
let all the rain go further
come back and kiss me in vain
mother oh do not bother

hear the chorus of pain
taking you back to proper ways
it's so easy to find
if you could remind me

now you are lost in your way
deep in an awesome story
so I will find you again
kiss you for lonesome folly
~~~~~~

the world


You are here alone again
In your sweet insanity
All too calm, you hide yourself from reality
Do you call it solitude? Do you call it liberty?
When all the world turns away to leave you lonely

The fields are filled with desires
All voices crying for freedom
But all in vain they will fade away
There's only you to answer you, forever

In blinded mind you are singing
A glorious hallelujah
The distant flutter of angels
They're all too far, too far to reach for you

I am here alone again
In my sweet serenity
Hoping you will ever find me in any place
I will call it solitude when all my songs fade in vain
In my voice, far away to eternity

~~~

key of the twilight

Come with me in the twilight of a summer night for awhile
Tell me of a story never ever told in the past

Take me back to the land
Where my yearnings were born
The key to open the door is in your hand
Now fly me there

Fanatics find their heaven in never ending storming wind
Auguries of destruction be a lullaby for rebirth

Consolations, be there
In my dreamland to come
The key to open the door is in your hand
Now take me there

I believe in fantasies invisible to me
In the land of misery I'm searchin' for the sign
To the door of mystery and dignity
I'm wandering down, and searchin' down the secret sun

Come with me in the twilight of a summer night for awhile
Tell me of a story never ever told in the past

Take me back to the land
Where my yearnings were born
The key to open the door is in your hand
Now take me there
to the land of twilight

~~~~~

aura


if you are near to the dark
I will tell you 'bout the sun
you are here, no escape
from my visions of the world
you will cry all alone
but it does not mean a thing to me

knowing the song I will sing
till the darkness comes to sleep
come to me, I will tell
'bout the secret of the sun
it's in you, not in me
but it does not mean a thing to you

the sun is in your eyes
the sun is in your ears
I hope you see the sun
someday in the darkness

the sun is in your eyes
the sun is in your ears
but you can't see the sun
ever in the darkness
it does not much matter to me

~~~~~